Psalm 37

3 Trust in the LORD and do good; dwell in the land and enjoy safe pasture.  Take delight in the LORD, and he will give you the desires of your heart.



April, the month when things start getting real in the Fellows world.  It’s that time of the year when graduation starts slowly but surely creeping up on us.  It feels like every conversation starts with one of these ever dreaded questions: So, what are you doing after Fellows? Where are you gonna live?  Where are you gonna work?  Are you staying in Nashville?  Have you figured out what you want to do with your life yet?  

As exciting/scary it is to think about all of these things, I find myself becoming consumed with the future, with figuring out the answers to all of these questions right now.  Completely forgetting that I am not the one in control, and forgetting to soak in the sweetness of the season I am currently in.  I am so consumed by the future that I am forgetting the present.

In life there is always something to look forward to, to put our hope in.  When I get that promotion then I will feel settled.  When I get finished with school, then I’ll be set.  When I move into that new house, then everything will be perfect.  In our most recent mentor brunch our leader shared with us that there will be many crossroads in our lives.  Many times our future isn’t spelled out and put in front of us in a pretty package.  There will be many more times that we will have to trust that the Lord will provide for our needs.  We have many big decisions ahead of us to make, and many more obstacles to overcome.  

In the midst of chaos, and a million things still left to figure out, today I choose to stop and be thankful.  I will relish the time I still have as a fellow.  I wil go to my host sisters school play, and soak up every last moment with my host family.  I will go to concerts with my friends and sing at the top of my lungs.  I will take in every word of our next Scotty Smith lecture on Monday morning.  I will celebrate birthdays,enjoying the beauty of a warm spring day.  I will be content with uncertainty, and have hope for what the future holds.  I will cling to verses like Psalm 37.  Delighting in the Lord and reflecting on all of the times that he has blessed me when I least deserved it.  Finding peace in the fact that it's not up to me to have all of the answers.  Today I will wake up and do good work, be thankful, and never cease to pray.