Can I be frank with y’all?
If someone had asked me last month, “Oh, how’s Fellows’ going?” My answer would have been less than stellar. I was emotionally exhausted, lonely, and down right miserable. I felt like I was coming unglued at my core. I was ready to quit and go home for a loooong weekend (if you know what I mean)—but I am not a quitter. I do not bail on people to whom I have committed.
So, you might be thinking, gosh, this Fellow is so bleak, and you would be right—as of last month, but God in His unfailing faithfulness brought me “out of the pit of Sheol” (Psalm 40:2). And to be quite honest, that’s where I was last month, for the past three months actually, but like I said, that was last month.
This month God has been out to get me in the best way possible, and He has done so through my fellow Fellows. Feel alone? “Let’s grab lunch and do homework.” Don’t feel cared for? “How’s counseling?” Don’t feel included? “A bunch of us are coming closer to where you live, to downtown Franklin, on Saturday.” (I live about 20-30 min from all the other Fellows). Feel like an outsider?
“Come play signs!”
“Stay over at my house.”
“Come over for a game night.”
“We’re here for you.”
“How are you?”
“How’s life going?”
And they mean it.
God is so good. His grace truly is sufficient (2 Cor 12:9) and He so willingly shows us that we are loved and cherished. I am so very thankful for the Fellows I am doing life with this year. They, without knowing it, point me back to the Lord and display His love for me in more ways that I can describe. I had a lot happen in my life right as this program started and it had all built up into a monster that I could not handle alone. Satan continually tries to show me that I am in this alone but God doubles down using my new friends, my brothers and sisters, to show that we are here together walking though this year together and we are all going through this crazy messy thing called life, together.